Teachers Strike

Im the good student. The nice one.... well when i'm around teachers. The working hard one and other shit. Today teachers are striking however year 11 (my year) and sixth form is still going to the school. I dont feel well as in I feel ill so Im wondering whether I should go or stay. Although my mum insists on me going since she doesnt really believe me that I feel crappy. Mothers, eh? Im thinking that maybe I will get a worse cold by going and then she mimght believe me and then I will tell her in a very interesting however sarcastic manner "Im not ill, hmm?" Lol well g2g

Not fair

I am just too stupid for this or too young or maybe not experiences. I dont even know. But I feel so terrible... Like i tried my best and got all of my courage to say something to him even though its only online. I just fee fucking stupid. People dont realise what kind of person I am because they dont give me any kind of way to show them what Im like. I hate it I really do actually. If he continued the conversation he might've liked me. Im just so fucking ridiculous I hate myself and i want to disappear

Dissapointment

I am the stupidest person ever.... I spoke to him. I actually did after a while. I was playful and nice and talkative and he put a lot of "hahaha" but i dont think he was interested at all. I asked him a question just to get the conversation going and he just blanked me completely.I send him  message and he didn't reply although i knew he seen the message on fb  Im so fucking stupid. I just hate myself right now. Just simply ridiculous. I will just wait until someone special comes along. I will stop trying. Thats it. I dont care. I can end up with 30 cats for all i care. Im just a fat, ugly and naive teenager that needs to sort her brains out.