Teachers Strike

Im the good student. The nice one.... well when i'm around teachers. The working hard one and other shit. Today teachers are striking however year 11 (my year) and sixth form is still going to the school. I dont feel well as in I feel ill so Im wondering whether I should go or stay. Although my mum insists on me going since she doesnt really believe me that I feel crappy. Mothers, eh? Im thinking that maybe I will get a worse cold by going and then she mimght believe me and then I will tell her in a very interesting however sarcastic manner "Im not ill, hmm?" Lol well g2g

Not fair

I am just too stupid for this or too young or maybe not experiences. I dont even know. But I feel so terrible... Like i tried my best and got all of my courage to say something to him even though its only online. I just fee fucking stupid. People dont realise what kind of person I am because they dont give me any kind of way to show them what Im like. I hate it I really do actually. If he continued the conversation he might've liked me. Im just so fucking ridiculous I hate myself and i want to disappear

Dissapointment

I am the stupidest person ever.... I spoke to him. I actually did after a while. I was playful and nice and talkative and he put a lot of "hahaha" but i dont think he was interested at all. I asked him a question just to get the conversation going and he just blanked me completely.I send him  message and he didn't reply although i knew he seen the message on fb  Im so fucking stupid. I just hate myself right now. Just simply ridiculous. I will just wait until someone special comes along. I will stop trying. Thats it. I dont care. I can end up with 30 cats for all i care. Im just a fat, ugly and naive teenager that needs to sort her brains out.

Moving this car forward!

So i decided to get my shit going about that little crush of mine. I made a move! No i didnt talk to him or say anything on facebook. You know what i actually did? I poked him on fb and liked his status in one day! WHAAAAAAAT? Its crazy right? If he pokes back it will be good.  xD Lolz Im totally living on the edge. I also had a history test which i revised a lot for since i had Fs and Ds in the past papers when it came to history. LOL I think i did well. :) Maybe this time I will get a C! :D woop woop usually though i get good grades in stuff not lower than a C so history is the only shit that i dont do well in :P

Little crush or desperation?

Once in your teenage life you have that little crush. Although in my opinion my crushing time has already passed about 2 years ago. Thats right, i didnt like anyone at all for 2 years. For a teenage girl it might be quite strange or not but Im not sure to be fair, it depends on the person I guess.Is it strange that I like someone who I didnt really speak to before? Maybe it is.  Anyway, I think I might be crushing on someone. I dont know when or how this happened but there is a guy in sixth form (year older than me) that I never really noticed before but now when I look at him I see a potential crush. Is it strange that I like someone who I didnt really speak to before? Maybe it is. Maybe I'm just really desperate since i didnt like anyone for a while.  He is good looking, plus he's geeky and I really find geeks cute. I never really had the chance to speak to him and also I didnt have him on facebook until yesterday. Haha yea, I kind of found out what his name was and did a little research and then added him on facebook. He accepted my request and also liked my profile picture haha which i found quite strange but sweet. So today I went to school and I just randomly walked around with my friends and then he walked past me and we kind of smiled at eachother. I dont know whether he was smiling at me or at himself randomly but I dont know. I might be just thinking bullshit. So I decided to see on his fb page if he has ask.fm so I could ask him some questions and maybe make friends first online or kik or anything so I wouldnt have to say who I was. Im really shy you see so I just wont talk to him like that because he will look at me strangely but I will do something, Im not sure what yet but Im open for any suggestions -.- 

Here we go

So since I am in my last year I decided to work harder than I ever did. I spent over an hour on my RE homework which and only got 6/8 marks. Its annoying. Anyway I got invited to prom my boy mate. Its nice. I will end up dancing with my friends anyway. Actually I don't see the point of going to prom with a date but I said yes since he is my friend. Hmmmm I got my halloween costume today and I look like a white rabbit slut in it. I put a cute white shirt under it and my mother told me to take that shirt off since the costume is suppose to be slutty. I was like "are you sure that's what parents should encourage? " I mean I never wear anything that uncovers so much so I guess its fine but slightly strange. I wanted to make an actual white rabbit costume but also so I look feminine in it however all I can do is look extremely slutty  now. If I dressed up as alice I could wear a cute dress but someone already took alice so Im a white rabbit since I love rabbits. :3

So Unexpected

Starting year 11 was simple however keeping the grades reasonably  acceptable was a different matter. My first actually week of school and I already have more than 3 essays to write and a few smaller homework that include completing my art assessment. Although in year 10 I thought that nothing could get worse and more stressful than it is now I do actually think that this year will much worse. Hopefully my brain won't explode at some point during this year. In addition to all of that stress I still have the worse ICT teacher in the universe. She might know what she's doing but she for some magical reason hates me. I dont understand. They make us change our school password four times a year and we are not allowed to have any of the previous ones. My memory is so terrible when it comes to passwords so I forgot my new one.On my ICT lesson I tried to log in and I couldn't. I tried so many combinations but nope.So I told her that I forgot my password and she just gave me the bitchiest look ever and said that its none of her business. Although in my opinion as a teacher her duty is to take care of problems of that sort. So I asked her if I could go to a man that changes passwords and all that crap (I didn't say that like that. I was more polite). She answered "No,you can't and now go and sit down " so I said that I won't be able to log in and she replied with her favorite sentence "That's none of my business " however this time she also added "Its your responsibility to remember the passwords you choose" and I was like yeah but I tried to remember it and i cant but i didn't want to argue so I sat down and just started screaming inside. While everyone was doing their work I was sat there and didn't know what to do. Later on in the lesson she said "who ever couldn't log in any of their accounts on the computer has a detention".  Fantastic eh? I was the only one who couldn't log in. I am still mad like hell .